29.04.2009 14 °C
...what in the hell were you thinking? Being a home body, thinking Canada, Ontario, GTA was the center of the world was so, beyond, wrong!! You should have explored more, taken a lot more risks, had more fun, looked at other avenues offered instead of what others considered as "right". Is it too late for my current self? I don't think so....but if I had done more younger I would have had a hell lot more fun and maybe been happier.
The above is a note that I wrote to my younger, extremely conservative self. I don't know what possessed me to stay at home and think that the world ended in my little comforts zone. I remember that while my friends were off exploring different things I sat tight lipped at home unwilling to explore new avenues of life. Now, the more I read things, the more I see more, the more I explore different possibilites, the more I know I made huge mistakes!
Can I rectify them now? Is it too late? For those of you who know me personally, this message will not be crytic (as I am sure some readers are like, what the hell?) but instead of being confused, I feel that I know exactly what I want and how to get it. Well, that part is not as clear but I do have "means" in the palm of my hands. It is just a matter of using these resources and making some life altering steps.
Am I ready for them? Damn right I am! I have wasted enough time as it is so.....it is full steam ahead starting today. My visions are clear. No more sitting on the sidelines and looking from the inside out, I want to be all up and through there!!!